unfit :(

After lazying busying resting lazying for almost 2 months, I finally went for a short jog today. This is on the back of doing the Towerthon on last Saturday night. 27 minutes to finish the whole thing. According to Sheanne , her record when she was 16 was better than me. Anyway, I will not let a 40-minutes-25-years old aunty rain on my parade.

And I realized how unfit I have become over the 60 days, I run slower, feel tired so much sooner. Is a wake up call for me and my tummy. I need to run more and more frequent.

I need to shout Run Forest Run every time before I start my run. Haha, I need to train my stamina and prepare for the 16.8km this coming September. 4 months is just a short 120 days for someone who can really waste their free time like me. I need to stay motivated. I need to run for a cause, I need to find my cause. Hahaha.

More run and less talk from today onward.

Change of Status

I'm not going to make this a long winded post to mark my great come back to blogger space.

I wanna share some happy news but I didn't wanna do it on FB because..... Well, I just didn't want everyone to know.

So I share it here to whoever that free bored care enuff bout me and read this.

I'm in a relationship. Not with a rich, drop dead gorgeous model with killer curves. But just a person that makes me feel appreciated most of the time and makes me want to improve myself for her.

Not going to have a narrative description of the whole thing or on any imaginary future big plan since is still in the early stage. Like a new born, is very fragile and delicate. Don't want to jinx it up for us.

Anyway, I'm not going to cut down any of my hang out time with my group of buddy from all around, no worries bout that. I'm still up for pints night, karaoke session, just that you'll be seeing me with a certain degree of happiness glow. (:

小时候很喜欢过年，从来都不会埋怨天气热。对于爆竹就抱着又爱又怕的心情：喜欢满地铺满着破碎的爆竹屑；却又害怕震耳欲聋的鞭炮声。最喜欢嗅着有点呛鼻的空气，脚踏着红红的碎屑。

一些很少见面的亲戚聚在陈旧的祖屋反而有一种温馨的体会，再热的天气就算没有空调也不在意，因为每个人都太沉醉在欢乐声中。厨房里的桌子永远都不会没有食物，冰箱里的包装水取之不尽。每一年妈妈都会说：不要吃太多的零食，小心发热气。

看见红包递过来时，手就会兴奋的向外伸，嘴上说着一些祝福的话。

以前的新年真的快乐简单多了。

CNY blues

CNY is less than a week away, and I have never felt so broke in my life despite I have yet to do any gambling.

I thought of starting to pick up photography. But I dun wan to get myself a DSLR. I want something analog in this digital age. Wait a minute, that is exactly the tagline for Lomography. I actually set my eyes on a very cute twin lens camera, not surprising, given that I always want something different.

But last month H&M bills and this month ASOS shopping + Phuket trip really kill me. I am living everyday by tightening my belt so that i dun feel hungry.

FML, boss ya boss, please give me bonus please.

New Year Resolution

Spend 5 minutes to write down my 2012 resolution. I think I round it up to 5 minutes, more like 3 and a half minutes. Damn it, my point is I WROTE A RESOLUTION list.

Don't be fooled by the fact that it only took me 3 and a half minutes, I have been thinking quite a while about it before I decided to penned it down in my planner.

Some of the goals are those that I should have achieve long time ago but somehow my lack of discipline and always taking the easy way out makes me a slacker.

I always pick flight in any fight or flight scenario. Not anymore, I want to be a fighter for 2012, just like Hugh Jackman in Real Steel. Oh wait, he didn't actually fight. More like I wanna be Atom in Real Steel. Wait a second, Atom was like a punching bag throughout the whole show.

I wanna be a fighter just like my dad and my mom, always fighting each other off. Seriously, they are the most dedicated fighter I come across, and they have been fighting for 25 years. No pun intended.

I will put up all the goal that I managed to achieve by the end of the year. In order to make sure I will not come home empty-handed, I cheated. Yes, I cheat in my new year resolution. I write down something easier to achieve than to not achieve it. Hahaha, go figure.

Ciaoz, peeps

i'm a heart-breaker

I'm a heart breaker and I'm definitely not feeling well right now.

I don't know how some people can go on an endless cycle of breaking another person heart. Doing it just once is enough to shatter my own heart.

So much for wanting to be a simple person not living through any complicated relationship.

Must a new opened door offset by another closed door?

Kthanksbye. And sorry to Sheirly. I'm really am.

do you love me more?

How much you love me?

A really short simple question with no definite answer. Simply because love is not something that can be measured.

If you have 2 million, and i have 2, 400, 000, is really obvious that I m richer than you; but you can't compare love in the same manner. Can u say I love you more than him just because I m willing to spend more money on you? Or simply because I m willing to sacrifice more than the previous guy?

Nor can you measure it with time. Just because you love her longer doesn't mean you actually love her more. Take that, mother fucking blur case.

And you can never weight love with tears you shed. Love is suppose to be all about happiness and feeling great. If you are crying, then something is really wrong.