聆听者的被窝

CNY blues

2012-01-17T17:29:00.001-08:00

CNY is less than a week away, and I have never felt so broke in my life despite I have yet to do any gambling.

I thought of starting to pick up photography. But I dun wan to get myself a DSLR. I want something analog in this digital age. Wait a minute, that is exactly the tagline for Lomography. I actually set my eyes on a very cute twin lens camera, not surprising, given that I always want something different.

But last month H&M bills and this month ASOS shopping + Phuket trip really kill me. I am living everyday by tightening my belt so that i dun feel hungry.

FML, boss ya boss, please give me bonus please.

New Year Resolution

2012-01-02T18:20:00.000-08:00

Spend 5 minutes to write down my 2012 resolution. I think I round it up to 5 minutes, more like 3 and a half minutes. Damn it, my point is I WROTE A RESOLUTION list.

Don't be fooled by the fact that it only took me 3 and a half minutes, I have been thinking quite a while about it before I decided to penned it down in my planner.

Some of the goals are those that I should have achieve long time ago but somehow my lack of discipline and always taking the easy way out makes me a slacker.

I always pick flight in any fight or flight scenario. Not anymore, I want to be a fighter for 2012, just like Hugh Jackman in Real Steel. Oh wait, he didn't actually fight. More like I wanna be Atom in Real Steel. Wait a second, Atom was like a punching bag throughout the whole show.

I wanna be a fighter just like my dad and my mom, always fighting each other off. Seriously, they are the most dedicated fighter I come across, and they have been fighting for 25 years. No pun intended.

I will put up all the goal that I managed to achieve by the end of the year. In order to make sure I will not come home empty-handed, I cheated. Yes, I cheat in my new year resolution. I write down something easier to achieve than to not achieve it. Hahaha, go figure.

Ciaoz, peeps

i'm a heart-breaker

2011-11-09T07:30:00.000-08:00

I'm a heart breaker and I'm definitely not feeling well right now.

I don't know how some people can go on an endless cycle of breaking another person heart. Doing it just once is enough to shatter my own heart.

So much for wanting to be a simple person not living through any complicated relationship.

Must a new opened door offset by another closed door?

Kthanksbye. And sorry to Sheirly. I'm really am.

do you love me more?

2011-10-08T07:37:00.000-07:00

How much you love me?

A really short simple question with no definite answer. Simply because love is not something that can be measured.

If you have 2 million, and i have 2, 400, 000, is really obvious that I m richer than you; but you can't compare love in the same manner. Can u say I love you more than him just because I m willing to spend more money on you? Or simply because I m willing to sacrifice more than the previous guy?

Nor can you measure it with time. Just because you love her longer doesn't mean you actually love her more. Take that, mother fucking blur case.

And you can never weight love with tears you shed. Love is suppose to be all about happiness and feeling great. If you are crying, then something is really wrong.

KICKS

2011-10-01T11:08:00.000-07:00

I always get happy whenever I heard Pumped up kicks by Foster the People on radio.

Pumped up kicks. Somehow it reminded me of sneakers. I always have a thing for sneakers, i blog about them here.

I own a few pairs of sneakers, none of them are over the top limited edition piece but that doesn't mean I love them less than Nike Air Yeezey. I'm more of a sneakers fans that appreciate design and practicality than rarity. 75k USD for a pair of sneakers? That is still a lot to ask despite all the money going into some charity organization. U are literally walking on money if you wear it out just to cruise around in town.

I have been telling my friends that I want to go Singapore. The ultimate reason is to go on a sneakers shopping spree. Just like gals have a thing with heels, my obsession with sneakers is of the equal level.

I want to double my collection without my mom nagging me, how ya? Can anyone give suggestion?

First pair that i use my own money to purchase
from Springfield with 50% off.

Tada, Onitsuka Tiger. The shoe laces is in leather
but lacking in term of comfortably

Puma X Ferrari purchased during 2010 CNY, bought it after
having a bad emo day.

Adidas Hardland, loved the flamboyant but the shoes durability
sucks. The lace holder detached only after 2 weeks of wearing. FML

A birthday gift from a splendid friend. Come to think about it,
is my first present since my 21st birthday.

10 10 10

2011-09-30T18:34:00.000-07:00

Really slacking when comes to blog. What better day to kick start my passion for blogging than on the 1st day of the month?

October is better than February, April, June, September, and November. Why?? Because it has 31 days, more is always better. Right?

October is awesome because it is so near to a brand new year yet u still have the luxury to slack for another 2 months before you realize that none of your resolution made during January has achieve.

Oktoberfest is celebrated in none other than October itself, u dun even get Decemberfest, that prove how awesome October is. Haha

May everyone have an awesome month, and many more post are making their way here.

Grown up, did ya?

2011-09-06T05:35:00.000-07:00

Hi, peeps. To prove to my mom that her son can still write in English so i purposely ditch Chinese for this post.

One thing I love about blogging is you can always check all your previous blog with a few click. Sometimes you look back to your previous entry and you get sad, but most of the time you just smile thinking back how naive or silly you were.

I'm reading my entries from last September and I realized one year is really a long period. If you follow the saying of living your life one second at a time, then you just lived Thirty one million five hundred and thirty six thousand second. To make it lot simple, is 31 560 000 second.

A year ago, I was still a student, complain about unfairness in life all the time. Hating myself for making me feeling so miserable all the time. My best friends have to listen to my stupid issue over and over and over again.

My best friend got married last Sunday, if u were to told me last September that she will be getting marry now, I will slap you for talking crap.

Never thought that falling out of love can bring such calm to my mind, no longer feeling restless just because she didn't pick up your call, no longer feeling sad listening to her lies, no longer having false hope that someday things will work out and we will live happily ever after, no longer thinking: could it be that I'm worthless hence she dun have to appreciate me.

I have forgotten that what I want was just simple happiness because I was trying too hard to drown myself in that pond of messiness. What started off as pure and simple turn into nasty and unpleasant.

I am no longer that person that live for someone else, I love whoever that is loving me and appreciate me. Thanks for making me a better person.

单身寡佬

2011-08-23T06:34:00.000-07:00

对！我没有女朋友。

对！我在爱情里是个失败者。

对！我没有特出的外貌，也没有高尚的品德。

但这不代表我没有爱情观。也不代表你可以取笑我。

爱是捨，当那一天你不再计较你的回报，那么你就是真真的爱着这个人。

爱是信，这可以是相信，也可以是信心。相信对方往往比无时无刻的怀疑简单得多。

爱是需要争取的，不是别人施舍的。所以当你觉得遇上对的人就请你跟着感觉走吧。

三餐

2011-08-08T22:17:00.000-07:00

常说一个小时的放饭时间不够，现在竟然还可以在opis里搞个短短的post.

午餐一个人随随便便地就解决了，不喜欢与一桌子只顾自个儿吃饭的同事一起。倒不如一个人潇洒。

午餐晚餐我可以一个人吃，唯有早餐不可。一个人的早餐可免则免。突然好想驾十几公里的路程去送人上班并一起慢慢的享用早餐。

不过,过去的东西就让它随风飘吧

人来人往

2011-08-05T19:43:00.000-07:00

人生经验都是有无数个人与人的相聚和分开构成的。

人来人往，人来又人往。

一些人可能走进了你的生命，然后悄悄地消失在繁忙的人群中。或许你曾经尝试再次寻找他的踪影，迷恋着你们之间的回忆；但你可能因此而关闭了其他人踏进你生命的那一道门。

一些人进入了你的生活圈里，一呆就是十年，可偏偏你从来不曾珍惜过他的存在，当他走了后，你也许也不会留意。直到有一天你想喝杯再普通不过的白开水，才发现一直以来都是他把水递给你的。因为你迷上了啤酒和汽水，所以他没有留下的原因。

一些人会以超华丽的方式登场，一些人会选择闹哄哄地离去。

人来人往，人来又人往。

你又进过多少人的生活，离开多少人的圈子呢？

miss me?

2011-08-01T07:48:00.000-07:00

好久好久没来这儿留下我的心声。

不是工作太忙，只是好像没有一个很好的话题。

其实7月也没有太多的事情发生，最大一件事莫过于Bersih咯。

现在有点不舒服，过两天再真真的写一遍好的entry吧。

Laziness

2011-07-10T06:53:00.000-07:00

First post of the month is on 10th, had I been really that busy?

I was staying at home for 4 consecutive Friday night, that's how lazy I am. Did working life make me feel tired and lazy? I suppose not.

I just run out of idea on activity that doesn't involve booze or movie. Oh, I think being broke sorta contribute to the idea of staying at home instead.

To be fair, I wanted to go out on last Friday (8th of July) but roadblock all over the town kill the mood, to be precise, makes traveling to town impossible. Hopefully coming Friday, someone is kinda enough to ask me out. Transformer anyone? lol.

你呀，我讲的就是你

2011-06-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

每个人都会有不开心的时候，不过这不代表其他人就得看我们的脸色。

逗你开心，听你诉苦不是我的责任，只不过我希望能给予一点点的关心和大大的支持。

当你小的时候，人们可能还会迁就你去包容你；现在你以为你还可以吐吐舌头然后装可爱就带过吗？

不要一直说自己多么的棒，不是每个人都接受得了你这样自吹自擂。

如果你觉得我是在说你，那么恭喜你，起码你还有一点点的自知自明。

机会与命运

2011-06-17T08:14:00.000-07:00

机会只有给会把握的人。

那我的机会在哪里？不要再说我没有把握，或是我太过迟钝没有发现机会在身边。

有一个非常善良的朋友很感慨地说：好人是不适合生存在现代社会，因为太多的坏人在四周。

我告诉她：我就是要让还存有希望的人知道他们身边还是有好人的。

机会可能都被坏人抢走了，不过游玩过百万富翁的你应该记得还有命运卡吧

2011-06-07T08:45:00.000-07:00

有沒有試過在毫無準備的情況下遇見曾經喜歡的她/他？

心裡是忐忑不安還是心如止水？

會惋惜為什麼當初沒有加把勁去追求；還是慶幸逃過了一劫？

我和大树（下雨篇）

2011-05-10T01:58:00.000-07:00

人：我们好像不曾在这样的环境下见面。

树：正常的人都不会在下雨的时候跑到树下吧。

人：正常的人应该不能与树交谈吧。

树：好久都没见你了，还以为你已经回你的家乡去了。

人：还没，不过很快就要了。

树：那，你为什么这么久没来找我？

人：唔，唔，我有交往的对象了。

树：真的？你应该第一时间通知我。很不错的女生吧？

人：嗯，还真的不错。之前比较忙，所以都没时间来看你。

树：不要睁眼说瞎话吧，我长得这么高，有好几次我老远看见你，你却兜远路避开我。

人：对不起，我不应该这样对你。

天空突然滑过一道闪光，轰隆隆的雷声尾随着它。天空好像在训责我的无情。

树：那你又为何冒着大雨来看我？

人：想出来看看被雨水打湿的大地，不知不觉地就走到你的跟前来。可能我怀念从前我们谈天的时光吧。

树：小伙子，如果你不怕被雷劈就走靠近一点，我好想看看你的样子。

我把雨伞摔在一旁，挨近了大树。它的叶和树枝就好像雨伞那样把雨给挡住了。

树：跟印象中的你一样，丝毫没变。

人：不，我变了。我们不再像以前那么亲密了。

树：傻小子，现在你有新的伴啦，一个跟你有一样兴趣的伴，一个能与你到处游玩的伴。你已经不需要我这个老家伙啦。

人：可是我并没有把你给忘了。

树：我知道，也没有责怪你。有人来就有人走。这个是不能改变的定律。

风逐渐变大，我也被吹得有点站不稳脚。本想多逗留在树枝上的树叶终于还是掉了下来。

树：你的雨伞快被吹走了，快把它捡起。

人：管它的，我本来就不喜欢撑伞的，是她硬塞给我。

树：哈哈，那我们就一起淋雨。

人：还有被大风吹！

我张开双手双脚，以大字形的方式站在树旁。雨滴不断地打在脸上，心里有一股说不出的快活。也不知过了多久，雨慢慢转小。

人：不知道会不会有彩虹？

树：阳光太弱了，今天是看不到的。

人：好可惜。

树：你还有我。

人：我担心有一天我会忘了你。

树：那如果我看见你我一定会叫你，如果你已经不记得了，我就会告诉你我们的故事，不管你记不记起，我都永远不会忘记。

我慢慢地离开大树，在微微的阳光照射下，我好像看见它笑了起来。我也跟着笑了，我知道它会记得我的，就算是10年或20年后。

我和大树（夜晚篇）

2011-05-09T07:22:00.000-07:00

大树说：我好郁闷，觉得有点矛盾。

我问：怎么说呢？

大树解释：太阳它越来越残酷，每一天我都感觉到昨天的阳光好像没有今天的那么炎热。它好像在试探我的忍耐。

我道歉，我说那是因为我和我的同胞在快速地摧残着地球。

大树说：可是我又不能没有太阳，因为它让我有了影子这个伴，让我能制造食物维持我的生命。

我说：好羡慕你能自力更生，不用靠其他人。

大树说：有人可以依赖也是好呀，我好想念我的伴。你知道吗？我不是天生就被遗弃的，我也曾经有很多很多的伴。这里是我的家，虽然它已经成为你的家，可是在那之前，这里就是我的家。

我说：这里不是我的家，我只是一个来到异乡寻梦的小伙子。

大树说：那你比我幸福，你还可以回去你的家。我就自己一个独自留在这儿。当初他们没把我砍倒我还很欣慰，可是在这里独活了这么多年，我反而觉得自己很可怜。

我说：大树，对不起。都是我们太自私了，忽略了你们的感受。不如我陪你到日出我才回吧。

大树没有回答我，我在想它是不是讨厌我了? 我走近大树，摸了摸它的树杆，虽然看不见慢慢枯黄的树叶，可是没有了阳光照射的它反而更憔悴多了。

我和大树

2011-05-08T06:05:00.000-07:00

一个人走进星期六的校园，眼睛看见的是熟悉的环境，和非常陌生的幽静。

没有了赶着去上课的急促步伐，剩下的只是偶尔被风微微吹着的树。长在枝上的树叶无助地随着树摇摆，发出沙沙的声音；仿佛在控诉树的落寞。

孤独的树就只能跟自己的影子嬉戏。

我想告诉树我能了解它的感受。

靠在它健壮的身躯，脚踏着枯黄的树叶，到底今晚的大雨还是明天的清洁工人会带走它们呢？

我在想：当太阳下山后，树就连影子都失去了。

我要，可以吗？

2011-05-04T09:14:00.000-07:00

我要快乐

我要简简单单的快乐

我要幸福

我要平平凡凡的幸福

Gone with the wind

2011-05-03T04:51:00.000-07:00

Osama is dead.

American are celebrating the news like 4th of July come early. What have become of us human being to celebrate on death of another person?

I know that the American has been obsess with Osama for quite a while, maybe is a good thing that now they can use the extra time to queue up every time Apple launch a new product.

I say maybe Osama's death is phony, I think some of the American is just sick of waiting for the troops to find the most wanted person in US so they decide to fake his death and people can just move on with their life.

Thanks, CN

2011-04-16T21:31:00.000-07:00

As I stared into Jake Gyllenhaal teary eyes while he is talking to his father in the last couple minute scene of Source Code, I was thinking it must be really tough for him.

I am not sure which is tougher: To tell someone you love that you are dying; or knowing that you will not be loving that person soon because you are going to die~~~~

Of course in Source Code the father knew his son was dead for months. Jake was just trying to tell his dad that he still love him. In a way, he was given the chance to do something no other dead can do.

I hate the phrase Till Death Do Us Part. Not that it is the most annoying and inappropriate statement, just that I hate the concept of it.

Jake was asking this question throughout the movie: What will you do if you only have a minute to live for?

My answer: Close my eye, let the self conscious of the brain to take me back to any memory in the brain. It will be the last thing I ever see.

知足

2011-04-10T11:51:00.000-07:00

人都在寻觅

寻寻觅觅，奔东跑西，上上下下，左望右眺，有时候就是会忽略了甚至忘记自己拥有的一切。

在我们不断地往外伸手拿前，千万要记得掏掏裤袋，看看是不是还装的下更多的东西。

Obituary

2011-04-01T10:49:00.000-07:00

I am so going to use this picture for my obituary if I die tomorrow.

Actually, this picture also pretty cute.

In fact, I took a number of good looking picture too.

And if I really leave this world tomorrow, I m sure my obituary will just read: He lived for almost 24 years and no contribution to the society. He leave behind no lover, but bunch of friends that love him. He don't take nice picture yet he love to camwhore. He think he is good but actually he is awesome.

Nah, I think you can guess that I am really vain and a bit stressed out so I decided to come here and take a break.

星星去哪了？

2011-03-27T20:52:00.000-07:00

下了小雨的天空还悬挂着不少的云朵，虽然人人都说没有云的天空才是赏星的好时候；不过我比较喜欢漫云飘过把星星时而遮挡，时而露出微微的光芒。若隐若现的，有别于大赤赤的另一意境。

可是当我把手中的啤酒放下，眼睛往天空仰望却看不到任何星星。一颗也没有。以为喝醉的我，略带酒意的用双手揉揉双眼再仔细寻觅。还不是一样，一颗也没有。

随手传了个简讯给住在吉隆坡的朋友，问她天上有星星吗？她说城市太多光源了，有霓虹，有电灯，还有车灯，星星之火何其之小，又怎么能够吸引连看电视也要就高清和立体的我们？

我对秀丽说：可能星星不愿看着可怜的地球被无情地破坏，而选择了离开。

秀丽说：星星应该以为自己不再受重用了，越来越少人向它倾吐心事，所以它去更需要它的地方。

我不服气的反驳：星星是迷失了自己，就像很多活在高科技大城市的我们，所以展开了它的重新找寻自己之旅。

我把剩余的啤酒都吞进肚里，看着朋友在吐着危害健康的毒烟，心里希望星星快点重现因为我突然好想把心事告诉它。

你怕吗？

2011-03-24T05:06:00.000-07:00

人们常问：死的感觉会是如何？回光返照是真的吗？

我不害怕死亡，我却对自己不明白为何活在世上而感到无助和茫然。

从小我就像其他小孩一样去上课，我也不记得是为了求知识还是父母亲威逼，不过心里想：既然其他小孩都是这样，我应该也跟着一样就好了。

渐渐长大，对于事物有了新的认知，却又好像有更多东西不明白。学海无边，每一天有新的事物和知识在增加，而我们却很难跟上这节奏。

老师说人是共同活在一个社会但有不同性格的个体，所以人生才那么多姿多彩。但为何那么多人歧视同性恋，非主流都被所谓的主流判断？

身边越来越多朋友踏入社会做个打工族，他们都对于我这个学生投于羡慕的眼神。嘴里都挂着同样一句话：学生生活是最愉快，最美好的。

问他们那为何那么快结束学生生活呢？
他们都异口同声地答：因为要快点赚钱，不要再依靠父母了。

赚到钱了又怎样？可以买车供楼，娶妻育儿。赚大钱的就买名车住豪宅，每年到这个国家走走那个国家看看；收入微薄的就开辆国产车租小屋，偶尔买件名牌充充上流社会。

毫不容易踏着其他弱肉爬上了更高处却发现额头上多了好多皱纹，身体也好像越来越多毛病了。有了比从前更多的钱，能吃的食物却变少了。

一个不幸运，得了癌症，花上了一辈子辛苦赚来的钱，幸运的就把病医好，不幸的就挂掉，但同样的最后都是囊空如洗。

从无忧无虑到无所不虑，也许死是一种解脱。自由是最奢侈的豪华品。

你说：活着不是更可怕吗？

2011-03-16T19:59:00.000-07:00

寻找灵感中........

看着美丽的风景，有没有想起不美好的回忆？

面对不如意的情景，我们会常常回想起过往比较开心的事情。

缅怀美好的我们又何时真真的去具安思危？

我告诉自己：要活在当下之余，也要活得精彩。不要迷恋过去，要瞻望未来。

my driver

2011-03-08T06:30:00.000-08:00

除非驾车的司机是个大白痴，不然坐在司机旁边的乘客位子是最幸福。

曾经有人告诉我：被人接送是很愉快的事情。

直到我终于有机会成为乘客的那一天，我才真真明白她说的是什么一回事。

安心的坐在车里，东张西望地看看，偶尔闭上双眼休息。

看着身边的司机被车龙搞得鼻孔都冒烟，电台播放着自己最喜欢的歌，一盏盏的路灯罩着脸庞，还有很舒服的冷气吹着心口。

很想知道下一次的幸福旅程还要等多久呢？

不要再早知道啦

2011-02-26T19:20:00.000-08:00

前一阵子的新年期间，与几位朋友在宿舍里打麻将，其中的林先生常常会把一句话挂在嘴边：早知道就不打这一张啦。

早知道这三个字真的很多余，如果我们有这种未卜先知的能力，我们其中一人就可能是世界上最无敌的人。

我们也不会犯错，也不需要把自己搞得遍体鳞伤的。

我们不会有任何的遗憾，更不会有后悔的存在。

我们可以自私的用这能力让我们变得很富有；或则很伟大的去帮助有需要的人。

我不喜欢早知道，因为它是很无聊且荒唐的。

我相信错误不是用来惩罚我们，而是让我们能成长和学习。只是有些人拒绝吸取经验而不断地重复犯错。

Cupid miss hit

2011-02-24T17:40:00.000-08:00

Have you ever been in a situation where you are really close with some1 of the opposite gender and both of you spend lots of time together, but you are pretty sure that you don't see him/her as a bf/gf material?

Not that you don't fancy her or ignore her feeling all the time, just that she sorta become a family member to you. And as much as you love your family, you just don't love them the way you love your partner, isn't it?

Well, on the same matter of loving someone. Knowing that some1 you love is happy even though he/she is with someone else and not you yet all you really care is she being happy, is that true love or just foolishly in love?

情人节快乐不快乐

2011-02-14T01:59:00.000-08:00

每一年的情人节都是有股酸溜溜的感觉，与其说是不屑，还不如说是羡慕吧。

没有渡过一个有情人陪伴的情人节，然后每一次就告诉自己明年的一定有个爱人在身边。自我安慰的话从开始的催眠到后来的无奈接受。

什么时候才可以有个不一样的情人节呀？

一个人也不是坏事，不过我想试试不是一个人的生活。

应酬我嘛

2011-02-12T20:37:00.000-08:00

好像越来越多曾经在部落格活跃的朋友不再像以往那样常常有新的更新了。

不知道是时间上的约束呢还是千篇一律的日常生活让他们无法写些有趣的话题。

我这个嘴巴不能合拢的家伙总是有说不完的话，不过最近也好像有点山穷水尽的感觉了。看见所谓有名的部落客都是上载一大堆的自拍照片然后马马虎虎地留几个字就交差真的让我有种无奈的感觉。

好想玩个写故事的游戏。可是一定要有人配合才好玩，方法很简单。甲某现写100个字做开头，然后乙某就继续写100个字，就一直这样接下去。

有人想玩吗？

不再回首

2011-02-09T09:21:00.000-08:00

请记得今天，我终于下定决心要放下了。不甘心也无补于事。

坚持很多时候会使一个人成功，但这一次我却失败啦。我得到的是回忆，许多快乐甜蜜的回忆。我也只能满足于这些回忆。

希望自己不再让自己失望，也希望不要再任性下去。

**************************************

才两天而已就好想告诉你我舍不得。才两天而已就觉得自己做了很错的决定。才两天而已.......

2011-02-06T01:36:00.000-08:00

你可以笑着问我是不是在哭，我可以哭着答你我没有吗？

你可以开玩笑地说爱我，我可以认真地忘记你吗？

你说你从来不曾被人抛弃过，我说我一直以来都是被遗弃的。

原来我们之间有这么多的差异，是我被爱情冲昏了头，还是我选择忽视我不想看到的事情？

杀不死你的只会把你变得更壮。为何不断地被伤害后我还是如此的懦弱？

2011-02-01T08:12:00.000-08:00

CNY holiday has been awesome. Hopefully I get to shop some clothes tomolo, super last minute eh

Update: It is true that you can plan a picnic, but you can never predict the weather. Turn out the day didn't go so well.

Had car accident and only managed to get myself 2 tees

and then there was my first love

2011-01-25T11:01:00.000-08:00

Before I developed the fondness for watches, I have always been a big fans of sneaker. Like really really big. Despite having a rather small house, there are actually free space in my shoe shelves for a pair of Adidas since I toss the old Superstar away. Been eying on the Hardland for quite sometime but sadly I have no idea where to get them beside on ebay.

I like the one white alot. But I think the silver one will turn more head.

Wouldn't mind having this as well, though is not as awesome as those on top.

Can anyone please tell me how to get them?!?!?!

Timekeeper

2011-01-24T07:40:00.000-08:00

After flooding my page with so many sad and emotional element. I think it deserved to be pamper a bit. How? With a lot of luxury watches picture. Muahahaha.

€4500. Is Bell & Ross. So dun ask anymore.

€9000. I like the black dial alot.

€20000. Pink gold and black strap is just so sexy

€32000. The very few Rolex that doesn't actually spell boring.

€35000. Classy. Elegant.

One of the oldest brand. Breguet.
€300,000. No typo.

No list will be completed without Patek Philippe.
€220,000

I always love an IWC. Dunno how much it cost.
But definitely want one even if I can't afford.

再见还是很爱你

2011-01-23T21:28:00.000-08:00

最近爱上了周杰伦的“说了再见”。

那一句 “我假装过去不重要，却发现自己办不到”让我好难释怀。

可是再次拥抱一分一秒又能如何？多一分的不舍，多一秒的回忆能有什么好？

好想告诉你那一秒很接近死亡的瞬间，脑海里闪过的都是你的画面；但那过后又能怎样？

注定不是你的就不可能是你的，叶家铭呀，不好这样傻傻的。十五岁时可能人家会觉得可爱，到了二十三岁就是不成熟啦。

原来过分乐天派真的是很可怜，因为当不如意的事情发生后都不懂的如何反应。唯一可以庆幸的是我不再需要问自己如果我再勇敢一点结局会如何？

好难过呀因为我太傻了。

click click click

2011-01-22T19:08:00.000-08:00

Is the time of the month again where I will take my calculator out and start punching imaginary figure. I dunno why I do it, but I do notice I have this silly obsession with doing compound interest equation with my calculator.

Since I am in my final semester, it only make sense if I start to think about how much is my salary for the first job. Lol.

According to the current job market speculation, is very much likely that I will be getting around RM2000.
If i work my ass off and the boss is impressed with my performance, let's say on consistently basic I get an increment of 10% for the next five year.

First year - 2200
Second year - 2420
Third year - 2662
Forth year - 2928
Fifth year - 3221

I only get salary of 3k when i m close to being 30. Omg. FML please. And since I oledi took out my calculator, i thought it might worth my time to do a prediction on how much do I get to save from that 5 years.

just to be realistic and conventional,20% of each month salary means I will get to save less than 35k in five years time. There goes my plan to get a ~~Polo~~ Golf....... zZzzZz

some wise word from Dude A

2011-01-20T18:25:00.000-08:00

Will you leave it to fate when you lose all your faith?

Dude A says that I am too emotional unstable and get pissed easily. FYI, Dude A is one person that I am closest to before I went to Sarawak in pursuit of my degree.

I remember we used to do almost everything together. Have we really grow apart? Or he just can't take my sarcasm anymore? I feel that somehow he seems to be more uptight and less humor.

I think Dude A is emo-prone as well, just that I didn't have the heart to point it directly to his face. Lol.

Face lift

2011-01-19T18:08:00.000-08:00

Decided to give my blog a little bit of face lift. Not really little as you can see 90% of the background has changed.

It doesn't have any sort of "wow" factor because I just simply choose a template from the website.

I love the background picture a lot though, I think Chinese calligraphy are those silent beauty that we take for granted.

In case you don't know, despite my constant presence on Facebook and MSN, I am actually quite busy with my lab work for my final year project.

下雨天，留客天

2011-01-16T04:28:00.000-08:00

讨厌雨季！

把我这个本来就慵懒的人搞得更无精打采，就只想躲在被窝里打滚，美中不足的是被子不够暖。

早上醒来才发现没有任何的热饮可以冲，还真的有够郁闷的。

上课完毕走出讲堂，看着倾盆大雨可偏偏没有雨伞，无奈！！

好希望新年快点到，我需要热乎乎的气氛来暖暖我寒冷无趣的雨季。但我觉得到时候我一定会投诉天气好炎热，觉得自己有点难搞的。呵呵

just a thought

2011-01-13T19:19:00.000-08:00

I know is too soon to talk about it, but I am struck by the thought of moving out and living alone. Not alone, more like away from parents.

Is just a thought right now, don't think is going to work out though. BECAUSE yours truly here is lazy, untidy, no income.

Maybe I should get my brother along? Then at least he can do most of the housework. Nah, that can only happen if I didn't strangle him first.

Ahuh, get an older GF with her own place. Lol, now I m getting a bit too dreamy.

二人世界

2011-01-05T19:14:00.000-08:00

古巨基有首歌的开场第一句是：其实自己一个更开心，只等你讲

没有错，两个人如果在一段不愉快的恋爱中，还不如一个人活得自由精彩。

从来不曾有认真恋爱过的我还是相信快乐是最重要的，哪怕吃的，穿的，驾的都不比上其他人，单纯的快乐相处就足够了。

我一直不否认自己是个怕寂寞的人，就是这一股感觉让我很珍惜身边陪伴我的朋友。也因为这样我更特别想要一个谈得来的伴。

最棒的二人世界不是躲在房间里两个人单独相处，而是感觉到对方和你一样享受着彼此的存在且不比理会其他人投于异样的眼光。

全世界6亿人口，单单一个小如马来西亚的小国就有2千6百万人，要在茫茫人海中找到对的人不简单。在这么庞大的人群里，相识就已经是缘分，相爱更是需要感觉的酝酿，时间的配合，双方的包容。幸运的人可能很容易就能找到，勤劳的人可能经过多次的尝试和失败最终也开花结果了。容易受伤的人可能一次的失败就会被打败了。

我没有很容易的就找到适合的人，所以我不是幸运的人。

我也没有多次尝试的经验，所以我也不是勤劳的人。

我更没有因为一两次的失败而气馁，我想我不是容易受伤的人？

我只是一个深深爱着她的人，一个只要听听她声音就会很快乐的人，一个看见她傻傻的表情就会身不由自地笑起来的人。

人因为贪心而把很多东西都搞砸了，因此我学会了知足。

人因为怀疑而把很多事情都变复杂了，因此我选择了相信。

人因为怕受伤害而选择不要尝试，因此我决定要勇敢的爱。

我因为你而感到无比的快乐，所以我也很希望你能够一样的快乐。

7491,不要再犹豫了，敢敢去吧。

8002，7491不适合你的啦，还是把心机放在工作上吧，呵呵

2010-12-31T18:33:00.000-08:00

看着你欲言又止的表情，我知道你在犹豫着。那双无法直视着我脸的双眼就快把我的心给粉碎了。

曾经有这么一位朋友告诉我：当你的心习惯了去爱且被这个你爱的人所折磨，要填补这份已逝的爱所留下的空洞真的好难好难。因为我们不是坚强的人。

我不会傻傻的站在前方的路口等你，因为我选择此刻陪你一起走，就算我们必须在下个路口分手，我也要呆在你身边直到最后一刻。

2010-12-25T08:55:00.000-08:00

要彻底的放手谈何容易？

让你紧握在双手的一切随风而飘需要的不只是勇气，你还需要一颗坚强的心。

不是说你付出比较多，你爱她比其他人更深就表示你比谁都更应该在一起。因为爱情本来就不能做比较。

如果爱一个人让你觉得好累，那么你有没有想过是你爱的方式出现了问题？不要执著地用昔日的回忆硬硬地塞进容量不大的心低。

我好希望一切能有更简单的解决方法。

what's life?

2010-12-05T16:15:00.000-08:00

How often do you ask yourself the one most important question of your life: What it is the meaning of live?

You will be astonished by realizing that you don't really get it figure out after living for more than 20 years.

I once read that man are goal-oriented. They only feel living when they are working toward their target or goals. If that is the case then I am in deep shit right now. Why? Because I dun remember having any proper goal in my life. Dating a super model and owning my own football team is more of a dream, not goal.

Could it be that I have not been living at all for the past 23 years? What I was doing are just breathing, feast when I am hungry and sleep when I m tired. And even the last part I have not been doing well.

I found myself wondering where will I be in 5 years time? You know, when I am about to be 30 and living in denial of that fact. And it is making me really sad and scare that I actually have no idea how my life is going to turn out to be. Hell, I dun even know I am a dog or a cat person.

There is another saying about life: a life worth living is a life full of joy and happiness. If that is really true, then I am actually having quite a life right now. Because I am enjoying it and I feel happy most of the time.

Right now, my LIFE is just Living + Inappropriate + Fun + Ending ( I do not have suicidal thoughts, but somehow I think I will just die in some freaky accident)

懦夫的道歉

2010-11-21T17:23:00.000-08:00

我想在这里向某人道歉。

这位我一直以来都知道他的存在但不曾见过面的某人。

我一向来都觉得自己是个很少作出有愧于别人的事情，可是对于这一位某某，我实在没有面对他的勇气。我就连道歉也只能在这里。

我想如果我们两人的角色对调了，可能我也会对他很反感，甚至有一股想揍他的冲动。可是他没有打我，可能他大量，也可能他不欺弱小。

不管你有没有再来这儿，我就只想你知道，我好难过因为我把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦之上。

如果我们是相识的，我想结果会很不一样。

2010-11-17T18:08:00.000-08:00

他和你是什么关系呀？呵呵，不是男友但比男朋友亲密。

除了点头认同，我还真的不知道能有什么别的回应。

我很清楚，明确地相信我还是像当初一样想看见你开心。而且我好像也真的有让你开心起来。

不过，你知道我这个半个女生的心里有多复杂吗？

2010-11-07T16:25:00.000-08:00

凌晨3点钟的高速公路是多么的幽静。

虽然油缸里就只剩那么一点点的汽油，也不是很肯定方向，但是一旦收音机播出熟习的过门音乐，心里就只有愉快和回忆。

是“红蜻蜓”啦，虽然描述的是人慢慢长大的无奈，可是表现的方式是多么的让人轻松。连身边喝醉的朋友也兴奋地与我一起高歌。

u rather watch anime eh?

2010-11-03T00:04:00.000-07:00

What do you want from me?!?
I am not your bf. Hell, I am more like a stranger to you when there are others around.

Is true that you can never get rewarded with what you give or sacrifice in equivalent amount, but I guess I am at least entitled to a certain degree of appreciation, right?

Say whatever you want, call me by any nickname you like, one day you will definitely regret taking me for granted. I hope you realized the mistake you make and learn from it before you lose me forever.

又是一个下雨天

2010-10-25T00:25:00.000-07:00

又下雨了，不是绵绵细雨，带动雨点打在身上的也不是微微弱风。

如果此时我有一辆车，我会毫不犹豫地踏上油门冲向逆风雨的前方驱驶。

就算没有目的地在盘旋也不赖，我喜欢透过镜子看着迎面而来的雨滴还有雨点打在车顶所发出的嘀嗒嘀嗒声。还可以凝视街灯下的雨点灿烂地飘划过。就这么简单的，我可以把烦恼都暂时抛在脑后，至少到雨停前我拥有这短暂的愉快。

然后，我可以把车窗摇下，大口大口地呼吸着清新的雨后空气。

人呀，还是过着这么简简单单的节奏比较开心吧！但生活从来就不能这么写意，感慨呀感慨！

2010-10-23T04:44:00.000-07:00

曾经有一个女生告诉我：有时候两个人一起踏上一段旅程，最后的终点不重要，可贵的是路上两个人经历的一切；因为终点会改变，回忆是不变的。

这位女生也让我明白了一件事：爱是美丽的，不要害怕为爱而勇敢。

身边就算有再多的人为感情的事而不开心，也不可能会影响我对爱情的看法。
只要双方都是要和对方快乐的在一起，其他问题都不足够以打击他们。

另外一个很可爱的女生曾经很感性地说：我可以有一百个原因去喜欢一个人，但我只需要一个原因就可以不再爱这个人。

昨天晚上，我看见只脏兮兮的老鼠，我立刻联想到一位很可爱的前同班同学。还记得当她看见两只老鼠在20米的前方越过走廊的那一刻，她的瞳孔张开大大的，乌溜溜的眼珠里微微带着一些眼泪，深深地吸引着我。我好像看见了世界上最美的一双眼睛。我当下好想抱着她，但她却忙着跑向反老鼠的一方因为她真的好怕老鼠。

I m using Engrish not English

2010-10-13T23:24:00.000-07:00

Some of you might start to wonder had I lost the ability to write in English judging by how frequent I used Chinese to blog in my entries for the past 2 months. Fret no more, here I am writing in words that my beloved mom can actually read and understand (so long as she stop complaining bout her son's awful grammar).

Despite the fact that I am still 8 months away from finishing my course and 2 final exam in between, I often wonder what is like to be working and be financially independent (the perfect world situation la, I know that in reality: you never earn enough to be financially independent). I don't really think about the salary most of the time, but I do look forward to lots of work, bonding with your co-worker/supervisor/office gossiper, and no assignments.

95% of my mate who is working have been telling me that being a student is the best thing you can have and 80% out of this 95% of people dislike the fact that they are working class now. I come up with 3 possible conclusions:

Working really suck. Not that studying is awesome, but working suck so much that it makes study cool, maybe.
I mix with a bunch of people who simply dislike working.
The working friends are missing the holidays a lot.

But still, wouldn't it be inconsiderate of you guys to tell me working is shit when I m so looking forward to graduate and earn my own first pay check? I am a dreamer, don't let the cold harsh reality bang me in the head first.

As for my conclusion, I think I need to work for a while before I can make up my mind.

可是我有音乐和你

2010-10-05T21:38:00.000-07:00

用五音不全的声音唱着一首歌词很不熟的歌，没有很好的听觉效果不过那份心意是感受到吧？

简简单单的一个短讯足以抵消一整天的疲惫，发自内心真诚的关怀和慰问比任何物资礼物好。

不要再为以前的遗憾拘留，也不奢望从此以后不再有泪水，重要的是现在身边有你在守候着。

在对的时候遇上对的人，不容易；所以才更希望能够好好的珍惜你，好好的爱你一次。幸福不是必然的，有时候我们必须争取，不应在未来回想起失去的机会，问自己如果当初的傻问题。

你们认同吗？

嬉皮笑脸

2010-10-02T05:50:00.000-07:00

我是个认真的人。

不羁的外表可能让好多人有种错觉：我是个玩世不恭的烂咖。

喜欢开玩笑的性格不表示是个吊儿郎当的家伙。

无厘头的表情和想法只是表现个人主义的方式。

从不合拢的嘴巴虽然给人油腔滑调的感觉，但了解我的人知道我什么时候是真心的。

从小身边的人都时不时会被我的表现感到出乎预料，可能一副轻轻松松的样子去完成一件事情会让人觉得没有努力认真。

鲁鲁说：如果你生得一副认真的样貌，相信很多人会很喜欢你。

我说：认真不代表不能同时候在享受着，我就是不喜欢把认真两字写在额头上。

迷失公园一日游

2010-09-25T05:09:00.000-07:00

居安思危好像从来就不是我做人的态度。我觉得我都是活在危险地带然后幻想如果我走安全路线的结果会是怎样呢？

可能这就是现代都市人的无奈吧，活在五色六光的霓虹下，一切的是非对错都不是黑白那么清楚笃定。好多以前我认为是对的事情，我现在已经不能了解了；不少我以往认为是错的事情，我却好像越来越频密地做着。

我好像迷失了自己，可能我高估了自己的能力，我以为我可以一个人闯入迷宫，解开一连串的谜题，任凭一股大无畏的精神打倒守护着高塔的飞龙，最后把公主求出赢得美人归。现实中，我是个不能落单的人，没有过人的智慧，更生来一副胆小怕事的性格。

我人生中最让我自豪的是我对身边朋友的真诚，如果那一天我连这一点都丧失了，我想我真的是彻彻底底地失败了。不过感到欣慰的是，此时此刻的我还有几个靠得住的朋友。

i get crappy mark for my essay

2010-09-24T07:18:00.002-07:00

is not an encouraging week for me, at least academic wise, is unexpectedly bleak. Unless I had suffer from a severe concussion, is very unlikely you will hear that I am going to further my study. Mommy, I hope you read this. :p

I have been lying on my bed a lot, to the point that I am impressed with how less movement I make in a whole day and yet I am not dead by my bed. I guess is good in the sense that I am actually spending less by doing less activity. Should I had discover this method long long time ago, I am now a love-deprived with some money, instead of being broke and out of love. HaHa.

Is kinda funny how I always thought that I have my future plan work out only to discovered that life is really unpredictable and I don't even know who am I. Maybe is not really funny, more like stupid or dumb due to the fact that you control every part of your body and mind yet you don't know who you are? How much dumber can it get?

On a happier note, I get to sleep much easier now.

人不为己，天诛地灭也

2010-09-20T19:51:00.000-07:00

从来都不是个自私的人，不过过去的一个星期，我好想自私的占有某某人。但心里好像有一道正气在告诉着我，这样是不对的。

之前还埋怨S君不能拿定主意，现在竟然是我在犹豫不定。想来妈妈真的把我教导的不错，做任何的决定都会考虑事情的好坏，从中做出好的决定。

多年来不断地做出道德伦理上对的决定并没有给我任何好的回报。是不是我应该自私一次呢？自己的快乐如果不争取，难道天会掉下来给你吗？

阿喵，快快给我一些意见。

2010-09-18T21:46:00.000-07:00

o ohhhhh~~~~ time to go back lo, steel design will be my only mate there.

Thank god I am going back, I am not sure how can I come up with more money if I continue to spend on outing like how I did on the past 15 days.

But I dun nid a rich wife to support me. I just need to have better control of my spending. Lol

time to stop?

2010-09-12T08:45:00.000-07:00

You can take away his toys, his TV remote, his favorite sneaker, but you should never take away your love. Coz that is just not the way to punish a person or make your statements heard.

Even though sometimes things you do and sacrifice in the name of love is not appreciated the way you want it to be, or worst still, people take for granted and thought that you have the obligation to be nice to them and treat them like queen or king; you shouldn't just stop loving so easily.

This kind of advise is really plain dumb and shouldn't be taken seriously at all. There are about 6.9 billions people living on earth, you will never have enough love for everyone. So if that person dun appreciate your love at all, you might as well give it to someone else.

Stop thinking that by doing so makes you a mean and heartless person, you are being mean to yourself if you try to fool yourself that someday that person is going to change his/her mind and treat you better in the future. They won't, no matter how hard you hope or how bad you pray, they won't wake up 1 day and appreciate you suddenly.

It sucks to be me right now, as much as I want to take all my love away, I just can't do it no matter how I try to convince myself.

2010-09-09T16:48:00.000-07:00

当鲜红的玫瑰慢慢变成深朱红色,你还是否愿意把它摆在桌上日夜对着它呢?

花瓣一片片的凋零，枯萎的玫瑰花蕊赤裸裸地出现在你眼前，你能接受如此丑陋的一面吗？

多么美丽鲜艳的玫瑰都会有凋谢的那么一天，也会有被抛弃的一天。

当它躺在菊花与茉莉之间，它是否有预测这一天的到来？它还会自视过高而不愿与现在同样命运的邻居交谈吗？

如果把现代的爱情比喻成玫瑰是同时符合又不恰当的；现代的爱情像玫瑰那样美丽但短暂，像玫瑰那样让人垂咽却又担心被它的刺刺痛。

但不同与玫瑰的是，枯萎的爱情不能够就这样扔进垃圾桶里。

u r not getting any younger, Malaysia

2010-08-30T09:26:00.001-07:00

August has always been a month filled with lots of patriotic talk, flag bearing vehicles on the road, and really nice advertisement from Petronas. Not sure with the ad thingy anymore coz for the past 4 years, I have not really watch TV during the month of Merderka. But I am sure it will not be as good since the departure of Yasmin Ahmad.

Despite the fact that 2010 is the 53rd years since we first declared independency, we are still very much restricted by people who set unfair restriction on us. These people are the politician in the ruling government. Time and time again, they throw ISA bomb on us, lying to our face in the name of following clauses in the Printing Presses and Publication Act.

How stupid can we be? U think just because people keep their mouth shut and never bring up some unpleasant issue, then the issue with cease to exist? U think we are so buying ur crap on the whole Malaysia economy measured by GDP is really growing with double figure? Ask any1 with a still functional brain, and they will have no problem telling you, despite the demonstration and riot in Thailand, the previous scandal of lousy greedy Presidency in Indonesia, these two country have no problem getting international group to invest in their country. Eat that, u bunch of jokers in Malaysia.

Try la go ask any business man, uncle in kopitiam, aunty in grocery stall, ~~People in Proton Edaran~~, do they feel the IMPACT of the strong economy growth? But make sure you let the uncle swallow his kopi-o first, i m very sure he will choose to throw up on you if u ask him with his mouthful.

But I m sure you put the uncle under custody using ISA as soon as he share his view on the way how the PM, DPM and their good Minister friends are making a fool of themselves. Don't you know people that is under heavy influence of caffeine is exempted from taking responsible on the honest truth they speak in kopitiam?

Seriously, u think u can fight the power of Internet with ur ~~self-delusional~~ mighty ISA and PPPA meh? Come on la, you think you politician really speak for the people of Malaysia? Or maybe you are, coz Malaysia population is just the YB and few millions of squatter who remained the working force pushing Malaysia through its hard time.

To all those blogger who screams FML because they gained extra pound, the narcissism who just took an awful picture of herself, or simply because they are called bimbo which is exactly true. I say F YOUR LIFE because u r a Malaysian who cannot blog freely.

Still considering the fact that I get holiday on 31st August, is only fair that I wish everyone else Happy Independence Day.

向前冲吧

2010-08-25T04:05:00.000-07:00

有一位华语程度比我好的家伙说她不习惯看见我的部落各都是华语的文章。
我只想对那位朋友说：nyasing, 我爱呀。

好啦，其实我不是懒惰写，只是有些东西还没搞懂所以就不分享咯。

最近在忙些什么？Hmmmmm, 让我想想，失眠啦，健身啦，打打球啦，喝下酒。好像还真的很忙的。

假期就快到了，真的好期待。又是与好朋友聚聚的时候了。有人告诉我，我在这儿3年了，但我从来就没有习惯过。我想她真的还蛮了解我的，不是讨厌这里的生活，只是熟习的脸孔都不在，难免就有一些挂念着他们。

以前觉得妈妈很唠叨，但每当吃完了油腻腻的炒饭，就很想喝一碗妈妈熬的靓汤。

弟弟在身边时，有好几次真的想捏死他，可是现在在网上看到一些潮鞋时，第一个要通知的还是他。

离开吉隆坡时，以为这下真的可以解脱了，可是无时无刻的想念着她，我们可以不再管其他人的流言蜚语吗？

等我吧，叶妈妈，李小姐，郭老师，刘小姐，黄小姐，周小姐，林小姐，我希望这个假期会是一个很愉快的14天。

凌晨4点钟

2010-08-20T13:01:00.000-07:00

每一个睡不着的夜晚，我都在寻找原因。

奇怪的是我不是要找出问题的源头，我只是想把失眠变成有理由的事故，说穿了，就是不把问题当成一个问题来看待。

可是不管我多拼命的去钻，我再也找不到能够安慰自己的借口了。不能够再去催眠自己。

我对睡眠产生了抗拒，明明就是累垮了但就是不想闭上眼。我病了呀，而且出乎预料地严重。

到底有没有药能让我好起来呢？

2010-08-18T18:44:00.000-07:00

两个星期，14天

一天一天慢慢地倒数着

你会好起来的

2010-08-11T21:07:00.000-07:00

给因为失恋/不如意的爱情而受伤的人：

爱情不是1+1=2这么简单，如果你摸不着它，你不该觉得可笑，因为天地下还有好多好多人和你一样，比数学更复杂的东西，你说有多困难？

爱情也不是是非题，没有绝对的对或错，你不能拿着它像小时候被阅改过的试卷，向老师提出置疑，因为你本身也没有十足的把握你是对的。

爱情更不是必需品，没有情人不代表你是可怜的，爱情是点翠你的人生的，如果点翠品在慢慢地折磨着你，倒不如痛痛快快地把它脱掉。

最后，爱情是不可怕的，可怕的是你在爱恋中做出你以为是正确的错误，可怕的是你不肯面对这些错误。

时间是冲淡一切的好方法，是伤口痊愈的良药，有一天你会发现无论你多用心去回想，你都记不起他的轮廓了。

u never get what u wan

2010-08-09T20:10:00.000-07:00

So much that I want to do, yet I only have so little money.

How badly I try to sleep, yet I only manage to sleep so little.

No one understand how much I am telling myself not to think about it, but yet the images keep haunting me.

On the bright side, I am about 3 weeks away from meeting my friends and family again. Gosh, I miss them a lot

best + birthday + weekend = awesome

2010-08-02T00:28:00.000-07:00

Is official. At least it is officially in my memory. I just have the best birthday weekend.

First, my beloved call me before everyone else send their message. She even sing me a birthday song. She is not the only one though. Very much later on my birthday, Miss Quek called and sang me one very out of tempo, out of tune, but packed with love version of Happy Birthday.
Happy fact: Is time like these that I am once again reminded how much people around me that love me.

And there are cakes. I dun remember having two cakes on my own birthday before this. Is actually one and a half because I am sharing one with my course-mate whose birthday is on the 30th too. The cakes is awesome, have a slice of the cheese cake in the morning and some chocolate cake in the evening.
Funny fact: The cheese cake is actually lot bigger than the chocolate cake, but I end up eating more of chocolate cake which is weird because I always hated chocolate cake.

Karaoke session after the steamboat dinner. Not everyone enjoy it, but I was having a great time. Okay la, that is not fair. I guess only people who like singing enjoyed karaoke, those who dun sing will never empathize on it.
Serious fact: Next time you wanna screw the asshole who spoil every single song he sing along to, just pick 浮夸。 and you will be amazed by the result. HaHa

And there was drinking session on the next night. see? People here in Kuching have a life too. Prior to the previous experience of drinking lousy Heineken, we opted for some cheap Whiskey instead. And as more people joined in, I lost track of time and start puking by the road. Lol.
Plain boring fact: You can read about it on my previous entry provided that you can read some Chinese character. These might come up handy: 醉is drunk. 吐is puke. Figure the rest of it yourself. Haha

Last but not least, I received gifts too. Although my stupid working brother didn't get me anything, not even half a boxer. I still get something handmade and one very lovely gift from another beloved.

Thanks guys. I wish my birthday is next week, in that case, I can do it all over again. ^^

不吐不快

2010-07-31T20:07:00.000-07:00

谁说一醉解千愁？

又何人说举杯消愁愁更愁？

我说一醉满身伤，举杯消愁脑蒙蒙。

其实消愁是骗人的，你只不过借用酒精来跟你的脑袋玩障眼法。当酒精占领了你的思维和判断力时，你不只忘记你的烦恼，你也把快乐悲伤和肚子里的食物一并地抛开。

okla, 你不可能可以把你的快乐悲伤呕出，不过那短暂的时刻，你真的是不会被任何不愉快的记忆打扰。你脑海里就只希望你可以不要再吐了；但是又有一种不吐不快的感觉。

没有任何的特别原因想喝醉，就纯粹要跟自己的身体过不去。哈哈，觉得我好变态吗？
我想去感受那种不舒服的感觉，好让自己可以更珍惜平时活在平淡舒适的生活。
想用喝醉的记忆提醒自己不要浪费清醒的时光。
更想去亲身体验举杯消愁愁更愁的意境。呵呵。

我还在醉吗？也许吧，可能我本来就一直在醉着，这七个月来都是。是时候喝杯解醉茶了吗？

you can't measure love like how you sized a penis

2010-07-30T12:53:00.000-07:00

How soon is too soon?

Is 1 month too soon? Is 3 month too soon? How about half a year? A year?

Was a bit shocked to found out a friend of mine who I always see as a typical gaming nerd hiding in his dorm room got himself a girl friend in the span of 2 months industry training. Then the-forever-smart Mr. Tan says: Remember bout you and the gal working for the promoter job? Was it less than a month?

Oh wtf, I totally forgotten bout that.

See, there are no such thing as too soon or too long when comes to developed affection toward a person. Some take years, like a good old whisky; while others claimed to be sort of like love at first sight.

Sometimes the fondness come in the form of a giant tsunami, carrying you to an uncharted area with no warning. It can also take shape of small calm wave by the shoreline, gently caressing your feet.

So dun worry bout what the rest of the world tell you, you can move on when you are ready to move on. If you are not, you can take all the time you need to ready yourself.

What's the fun of doing something if you know that outcome of it from the beginning? That is why leap of faith is so much more exciting. Ms Quek just took 1 herself, and now I wonder when will I be doing so too?

你知道吗？

2010-07-19T20:08:00.000-07:00

有些人无论你花多少时间和他交谈，你都不会腻，你也不会觉得他烦。因为他已经成为你的一部分。

有些歌曲就算你听了500遍，你也还想再听500遍。因为它曾经陪伴你度过无数个失眠的夜晚。

有些话你天天都向他说，但你还是觉得你没有说够。因为你害怕有一天你不再可以告诉他了。

有些事情你一直在做，不过你永远不会觉得苦闷。因为你喜欢这么做。

有些坏习惯你从小就懂是不好的，可是你没有想去改掉。因为十全十美的人太恐怖了，你还想保留一些人性。

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我们曾经天天形影不离，天天一起上课，一起被训话。不过那都只是曾经。那些事情都只能回顾，或许你没有像我这般地去怀念它们，但我相信偶尔你会想起那些日子。

可能以前你只有我做伴；现在你多了同事，旧同学新朋友。
可能我改变了太多，你不能适应这样的我，所以我们不能相处的很愉快。
又可能是你也变了，我却硬硬要你回到过去似，因此我们不断争吵。

人因为长大了，就会变复杂；我希望看见复杂的你背后的倒影是成熟的，而不是怪异孤僻的。
我答应你我会尽我所能让你看见我友善可亲的一面，不过这是需要时间的。

我希望听到你开始多一些说：好，我要。因为你现在都只会说：no, thank you.

se7en

2010-07-19T06:30:00.001-07:00

Just watched Se7en, again. Is not that I am bored, but is because the movie was simply awesome. I know Morgan Freeman has spoiled tonnes of movie, he is still doing his prank right now, but I actually like Morgan in Se7en.

And Brad Pitt is in the movie too. How I miss Brad? Inglorious Basterd (last year) was pretty enjoyable but is nowhere as good as Se7en(1995) or Fight Club (1999, if i m not mistaken). Is not hard to admit that he is indeed very yummy looking. More reason to hate Angelina, i guess.

The movie is themed on 7 deadly sins of man:

gluttony
greed
sloth
lust
pride
envy
wrath

How many of this 7 deadly sins you are actually possessing? I have never been a bad person, but I might have to watchful when I sleep tonight, just in case Kevin Spacey, who played the distorted psycho killer pay me a visit.

I have yet to watch Inception, despite the whole FB is flooded with rave from almost everyone, I doubt it will be as good as Cashback.

Heineken fuelled dream

2010-07-17T18:28:00.000-07:00

Is not common for me to remember things vividly without tiny bits of details lost, and is just as hard as for me to have dream.

So imagine how happy I am that I can actually recall the dream I had yesterday. I am happy that I can remembered it, but I am actually confused with the dream itself.

I was helping in the shop that I previously worked in, but I am not actually paid to work in the dream. I volunteered to help out. Everyone is in the shop except that one person that matters more wasn't there.

But instead of packing product of the shop, I am actually dealing with floppy disk (which is somehow relate to this one time when I help my friend to put CD in cover), who on earth use floppy disk now anyway?

Then someone's phone rang. That someone pick up the phone and start talking. Then she look at me, pause a while, and told the other end: Your ex-bf is here, you wanna come?

She hung up the phone and says: she will only come over earliest by October.

and then the dream end. Fade into total blackness.

I am not sure what is it about? But could it be telling me that I shouldn't look backward and look forward instead?

你可以听听吗？

2010-07-13T02:42:00.000-07:00

你可以用很多时间去准备，去计划，但你不能预测意外，你也不能逆天而行。因为天意，最后我连“補插”都不能带走。

注定了就是注定了，何苦顽强地要作对？因为作对，搞得关心自己的人都不愉快。

争取过，努力过就真的不会有遗憾吗？我争取过，但是我落得一肚子的不满意和无助。

坚持是勇敢和毅力的表现，还是愚蠢和顽固的写照？你的坚持让我好辛苦，我却莫名的觉得你好有性格。

expectation

2010-07-10T05:57:00.000-07:00

朋友说人因为有了期望而把人与人之间的关系搞砸了。

如果没有期望就不会因为得不到而失望，不会失望而变得闷闷不乐。

当闷闷不乐时，小小的不如意都会被放大。放大的小不如意就会堆积起来，慢慢形成了一座火山，长期处于一触即发的状态。

但是没有了期望就可以把问题都避免了吗？

合理的期望是好的，我是这般的见解。期望好比喻成目标，换另一个发式去看待期望: 至少有期望表示你知道你想要什么，你不再需要费时费神的去思索你要的是什么。

有了你的期望，对方不再苦苦猜测。你的期望就变成了一个指南，引导对方，帮他了解你的需求。

期望的好坏在于本身的拿捏，如果你以中庸的心态去期望，相信会是百利而无一害的

你说你学会不要有所期望，我觉得是你忘了期望的快乐，你选择了不期望。

没有值得期望的恋爱方式，你会快乐吗？

注：我没有“意默”，我只是写下我的想法。

2010-07-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

我想起了我小时候最喜欢的活动就是说故事。

应该是我重新找回我儿时的快乐啦

离开不是逃离

2010-07-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

最近我都好像很迷惘，时常搞不清楚自己到底要什么，又不要些什么。

前几天坐在戏院里，情侣座是没有中间的armrest的，可是我可以感觉到我们之间隔了何止一片海，忽然想起原来我们来看这部电影是因为你觉得你需要禰补我，你想要为你之前的过错补偿，难怪坐在身边的你好像敷衍似的看着电影。

当晚的零交流和电影结束后你迫不及待的要离开，迟钝的我现在才明白为什么。
我还特地穿的比较隆重的，好可笑呀。

虽然我喜欢潮起的快感，但很无奈的，我不能面对潮落时的失落。或许我和你一样都是比较适合在没有任何浪潮的地方漫游。

直道七月一号的晚上8时30分，我才明白原来我需要的是决心。开着空调，坐在被雨水打湿的车竟然还比你对我的冷漠还来得更暖。你的无视让我有了离开的决心。

我还是老话一句：我不要求公平对待，我只需要真诚的关心。能陪伴你度过低落的时期，其实我也一样渴望你会分享你的快乐。

2010-06-28T07:27:00.000-07:00

你身边有没有朋友是你特别喜欢向他倾诉你的问题的？

我发现我真的很喜欢聆听别人的故事，无论是快乐或悲伤的，我都会去细心的听清楚。能给以意见的，我都不会吝啬；当然有时帮不上忙，我也会有点沮丧。

我想有两个原因我会喜欢这么做。

其一是我能从中得到存在感。因为有人需要我的耳朵和意见让我觉得起码自己对社会还有少许的贡献，哈哈，我是怪咔吧？

其二或许听起来有点像自我在搞伟大，不过这真的是我的想法：我明白人在难过时，如果没有人能聆听他的问题，他会感到非常无助，甚至会有点绝望，所以只要在我的能力范围内我都会去帮他。可能是我本身无法得到别人的耳朵和肩膀，所以我有一种使命感（臭屁啦）要去阻止同样的悲剧（好夸张）发生在朋友身上。

所以，妈咪请体谅我吧。

2010-06-27T09:21:00.000-07:00

我真的真的很累！

人说哀莫大于心死。

平凡比特出难

2010-06-21T08:44:00.000-07:00

平凡简单，突然好想抱着这4个字到梦乡去。

回想起以前小些的时候，喜欢一个人是多么美好的一件事。偷偷的张望着心仪的对象，有点担心她会不会突然看过来，暗地里又很渴望两人的眼神能碰到。

现在长大了，胆子是比较大了，但要顾虑的东西也越来越多。喜欢一个人反而变成一种折磨，美好的东西变质了, 付出的回报竟然是心痛和失望，还有数不清的不悦和无奈。

我怀念过去单纯的我,如果长大的代价是失去平凡，我情愿不曾长大，起码我可以简简单单地过我的生活。

讽刺的是当人人都在追求机会来特出自己的时候，我竟然只想要普通朴实。好想好想再一次傻傻地喜欢一个人。

此时此刻，一句发自内心的问候变成了我不能负担的奢侈品，一只温软的小手就象天上的星星般遥不可及。

2010-06-21T03:01:00.000-07:00

Please dun say that I have abandon you.

I once make such accusation in the past and I really regretted it. I hope you will not make the same mistake as mine.

You know that you are more than just a good friend to me, in fact, if i ever have a GF in the future, she will not know me better than you do.

Can we just go back to how we were back then?

2010-06-19T09:27:00.000-07:00

I seriously need to have goals in my life.

I m growing more and more restless because of not having anything to achieve in my life.

I know I need to have something yet I dunno what I want for now.

Can some1 help me out? Just a little suggestion to kick start my ass

2010-06-15T09:37:00.000-07:00

Is really ironic how sometimes a person that you like the most, the most compatible together with is never your partner in life.

People always say that so long as you put in your effort, then you will have nothing to regret bout. But endless disappointment can be quite sad, and slowly you will start to have less faith and even less hope. Hope is for people who have strong believe, not those emotional unstable people like me.

So instead of hoping something to happen, I am now taking action and make things happen. Wish me luck eh!

请珍惜

2010-06-05T20:10:00.000-07:00

我还以为只有艺人被人消费来获得利益，博取知名度，可是我错了。

其实也不是没有预感的，只是不停地催眠并告诉自己：是自己敏感罢了，不好胡思乱想，搞得大家都不欢而散。

但再笨的人都会有一天清醒，狠狠地掌掴自己，要自己去面对事实。或许我真的不能像伟人那样不计较付出，一直奉献；因为我不是伟人。

你再也没有资格忽然传我一则短讯问我为何没有与你联系。

你更没有资格要求我做你的司机，你的闹钟，你的发泄对象。

因为你让我好失望。你让我看清：一个人若不回珍惜你，那是因为他不值得你对他的好；就算你不再对他好，他也不会怀念。

still emo

2010-06-02T09:30:00.000-07:00

Your ex become your ex because he/she was never the right person for you. He/She will remain as a distant memory of your past because they don't belong in the future with you.

You need to be strong and toughen up, you will meet a better lover.

You need to start moving on now, he/she is doing alright since the break up.

These are the most common line that you might get from your friend who is trying to make you feel better. No break up are easy. Break up can be ugly, nasty, draggy, silently (as in one side just choose to vanish into thin air and not picking your call anymore), but never easy.

Moving on are equally tough.

You can tell the whole world that you moved on, you can even be in a new relationship with someone hu seems to be lot better than your previous bf/gf. But beneath all the happy smile, you still thought of he/she a lot.

You go around telling how much you hate him/her for cheating on you, for breaking your heart but somehow you know very well that you still care a lot bout them.

You can get all your friend to cheer you up, take all their advices, go for some sort of escapade and get drunk, but in the end you need to really forgive before you can forget. It will be all yourself, no matter how many good friend you have to support you, it will be all down to you.

I never doubted that I give all my support to my friends who needed them, I gave my 110% for them. But I know sometimes that is just not enough for them, they need to give their 110% as well.

So please don't hope that I can endlessly support you, because even Superman need to rest and make love with Lois Lane, Spiderman need to earn his living by working as a newspaper photographer.

I don't want to feel that way, but you are making me starting to doubt that all my effort is going down the drain.

Sometimes

2010-05-29T06:54:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you just need to make up your mind.

Sometimes you just need to be selfish and put yourself first.

Sometimes you try too hard to please everyone, you end up hurting everyone.

Sometimes the person that you love the most is that one person that you know very well you can never be with no matter how hard you try.

Sometimes you need to be cruel, even though you are always the nice guy.

Sometimes you think you understand love, but actually you only know love just the way you want it to be.

Sometimes I just wish I can runaway from all these sometimes.

How many is too many?

2010-05-22T19:29:00.000-07:00

Is no secret that I am a shopaholic. And is no secret that I love buying shoes.

Whether you call it sneaker or shoes or something else, you know I m talking bout the thing that you wear on to your feet.

Despite the fact that I own the most pair of shoes in my family, I still think is alright to get another pair or two, especially now there are so many awesome design out there.

Although, Nike has some really marvelous design but I m getting sick of seeing so many ticks whenever I go. I mean, is really pure madness to see so many pairs of Nike on the road.

My current love: A canvas shoes from Cotton On that I bought for 29.90. Lol

two in 1 post

2010-05-19T08:56:00.000-07:00

Went to Ara Damansara for site visiting purpose.

As soon as my lil bump rested upon the seat of the van with a malfunction air-con, I am thrilled. The old familiar of sweating under the hot sun in a stuffy van, the bouncy feeling due to the super lousy suspension or because the van doesn't have one.

I used to ride in the van when I was in primary school, my uncle was running errand and delivering goods to customers, and I always tag along. Despite the hot weather and bouncy feeling, I always fall asleep easily in the van.

So imagine how happy I am when I start to feel the hot air breezing through my face as the van pick up speed, of coz I didn't like the dust, but still not everything is perfect ma. I just rest my head by the opened window and let my mind be free of any thought, from work, from family, from friends who appreciate you and don't appreciate you enough.

Is like me being 11 all over again when I m actually 23. Gosh, I am such a sucker for lingering on old memories.

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Just because you are nice to your friend, it doesn't mean they have to be nice to you. You are not genuinely being nice to them if you actually expect them to repay you with their kindness in the future.

p.s: It seems that it doesn't matter how close you and I, and how much I care for you, you still think see me as a second class, at least I am always second grade to that another guy, I am just the guy that you will show your ugly side to, but never your softer side.

p.s: I witness how you try so hard to wipe your tears off when you are riding in my car, the question that I wanted to ask really bad: Is he worth it?? Please stop using dunno how as an excuse!

p.s: If you think I am nice to you all because I am attracted to you and wanna woo you, then sorry la, my dear, you r dead wrong. I have no problem helping a friend in need, but if you think that I MUST help you out when you need assistance, you better think again. I dun even think that you are half as nice as how I treat you.

p.s: I might always be smiling and makes sarcastic remark right after I say: I like you, but I really mean it. So please stop having doubts and believe in me and you.

短短的就夠了

2010-05-15T17:45:00.000-07:00

最近有點累，不是工作太多，只是自己選擇去做個夜貓子。每次都把自己搞得累到半死才去睡。

情緒上有越來越不穩定的感覺，難道我真的變成了emo一族了？

突然好想找找貓咪和老師走走夜市，吃吃不健康的小吃，然後嘻嘻哈哈的38一番。

發現和以前的朋友漸漸疏遠了，聊的話題都是他們的工作如何如何，不再是廢話連篇的狂想曲。

也覺得一些重新聯絡的朋友好像很好相處的。

本來是要好好安慰剛剛分手的朋友，但是現在好像變成了她的水泡。覺得有點趁虛而入的感覺，不是一件壞事啦，不過不想她醒來後覺得自己太不理智了。

Soup soup soup

2010-05-12T07:03:00.000-07:00

Ah Ma's lengtong. Actually I am not sure is it my mom or my dad who make the soup la. Lol. SO it could be AH Pa's lengtong.

Is salted vege with tofu, tomato and carrot soup. Maybe too much water was added so somehow not gao enuff.

I wan ABC soup, Miss Quek says she is going to make me 1 when she come back. Hopefully she is not lying la.

Internship P1

2010-05-06T03:12:00.000-07:00

Miss Quek requested me to blog about my internship life. Wanted to take some pictures but dad took it for his work in office. So I guess you just have to read my blog without picture for now first.

I am doing my internship in a construction material laboratory company, my job start on 8.30, so I have to wake up around 7o clock if I want to prepare my own breakfast, or 7.20 if I wan to sleep longer because the night before ~~went clubbing fooling around drinking~~ helped mommy with housework till 2 a.m.

Lunch break is at 12.30. I wish it is at 11.30 because I always get hungry by 11. One hour only lo my break time so I just eat at the nearby mamak stall and spend the saved time resting or read newspaper. OMG, i sound like those old man that has been working in the same company for the past 20 years.

5.30 is the happiest moment of my life. I will punch out in record speed and zoom back home to remove the dusty jeans as soon as possible.

Then dinner at home lo, I guess my mommy took my Miss HER COOKING statement too strong, so she want me to have dinner at home as much as possible.

And I have to work on Saturday too. Stop smirking. Don't mock me just because I am soft.

Yer, why this entry sounds very boring 1? Because internship is boring la. Duh

to a fren hu is stuck in Hobart now

2010-04-30T03:55:00.000-07:00

According to LWL, I am too soft. And being too soft all the time means I am going to get bullied and hurt by others, especially those big mean fellow.

To be frank, I am actually more toward being nice than being soft. I do believe that if you try to fight fire with fire, you end up having a gigantic blaze up in your ass.

So LWL, i think you should take my advise instead, try to be softer, k?

Thin like stick

2010-04-24T18:44:00.000-07:00

Before I went down and meet my senior which I suppose to have dinner with, I can't help but to pray hard that she will not mention anything about my weight.

As soon as I sit down, she look at me and said: You are thinner.

me: ............

she: You really are thinner than before.

me: is that even possible? Given that I am so thin before this.

she: You beat the odd, then.

me: .............

me: lets eat!

I had fried rice, soya bean, and burger. Slam it down~~~~~

Ouch, am I actually shrinking thinner? OMG, I m going to take my breakfast now. Bye~~~~

Dear mommy

2010-04-22T09:14:00.000-07:00

Someone complain that I purposely write my entry in Chinese because I don't want her to understand what I am trying to express.

Luan Luan Kongg. Nah, now I write in English lo, okay? I am doing it only for you lo, because you are the most important woman in my life. So I think is right about time I get more allowances. HaHaHa.

In a week time, I will once again get to drink mommy's warmth and delicious soup. I'm homesick to the max. Could this possible be the reason why I can't sleep at night?! I don't think it has anything to do with the final exam.

Beside my family, there are a lot of people that I am missing too. Khai Lin la, Sheanne la, Yoko la, Kah Lun la, Mei Cheeng la, Cindy la, Sheirly la, Wen Qian la, and also Fat Xiong and Gay Xiang. My brain also can't recall all the name lo

The only thing I am not hoping to be greeted by is the super hot weather of KL.

把话说清楚

2010-04-16T23:34:00.002-07:00

心照不宣
两个人都知道的事情，有时候不用真的说出来，心里知道了就足够了。说了出来也于事无补，还不如用那口气来暖暖肚子。

心有灵犀
像魔术那样，两个人不用开口，不用任何暗示，就有一样的想法平且了解对方的心思。没有体会过的人会说是巧合，有体验的就知道那种感觉是多么的美好。

我从来就不是个寡语少话的人，嘴巴吱吱喳喳的，好像都没有合拢过。相信不少人还会嫌我吵呀，烦啦！

不过很多事情如果一直摆在心房里而找不到对的门路去发泄，往往人就会变得闷闷不乐，或者失去了说话的勇气。

千万不要以为很多事情可以用感觉去表示，每个人的脑袋都不一样，很多时候事情就是因为你的安静和不语而变得更复杂。勇敢的去把事情交待清楚，最起码你不用猜疑对方到底在想什么。

世界已近太多的谎言了，这个时候，它不需要含糊不清来把它搞得更复杂。

在这儿，我很想分享一句话，是从电影里的对白，那时在我心里产生了莫名的共鸣：所有人都记得真相，只是他们越来越会撒谎而已。

2010-04-12T23:18:00.000-07:00

Nik says he is trying to like gals.

I told him: ~~I am trying too!~~ I miss the feeling of liking a gal, that kind of pureness and sweetness.

Is not suppose to be so hard, right? I mean gals are hard to understand la, but love is simple wut.

I wonder what went wrong......

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好无助

2010-04-09T05:37:00.000-07:00

我好想痛痛快快地哭一场。

我没有任何的伤感，但是我真的很想很想哭，至少内心莫名的不安能得到释放，不会一直这样折磨我本来就不太好的情绪。

我不清楚是什么让我越来越不明白自己，难道每天看着镜中的人不是最明白的人？

我有这么的复杂吗？过去单纯无邪的我去了哪里？我好迷惑，好无助，好累。

好渴望一个温柔的拥抱，更渴望一双有力的手能给疲惫的身体舒服的按摩，我需要实实在在的人与人的接触，感到对方的体温。

我好想得到的东西，我从来没有得到过......

Sometimes + sometimes = most of da time

2010-04-06T14:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I turn to the person sitting next to me, and I caught him/her looking at you. I gave a friendly nod and smile but I wasn't sure why I do it.

Sometimes I look at the person sitting opposite of me, and he/she look up and caught me looking at them. I gave a red-faced smile and quickly bow my head down or look somewhere else.

Sometimes I look at my hand, carefully inspecting fingers and nails, removing the dirt caught in it, or just vigorously rubbing the hand and feel the heat on the palm.

Sometimes I look at my notepad, tentatively reading crap or outdated tutorial example and solution.

Sometimes I look at the doodle or scribble written on the table by some student with heart fill of vandalism and hooliganism.

Sometimes I look at my shoes and get annoyed with the mud spot on it.

No wonder I didn't get much from most of the lecture class, because I am distracted by different thing in that 120 minute.

late april fool post

2010-04-02T20:00:00.000-07:00

Wanted to write this in Chinese initially so that people who can’t read Chinese will not think that I am racist, but after much consideration, I decided to write it in English so that everyone can get whatever that I am trying to express here.

I love Malaysia, the food, the people, the street, ~~Mid Valley~~, the weather and etc. But one thing that I don’t like at all is how we are being fooled by the government (actually not the whole organization, but merely some top position in the Cabinet) of this whole 1Malaysia campaign. Don’t get me wrong, I am not against the unity among different races concept. But is just a task that can never be accomplished. At least it is not achievable so long as the government continue on with the policy of Bumiputera Superiority (BS).

Okay, some might start to say that I am playing with fire by bringing this sensitive issue up. That is not my intention: to stir up more displeasure of non-Bumi. NO. I am talking something bigger here. I am always against any double standard in anything. Since young, we are taught to be fair and everyone deserved equal right and chance in everything. Yet, in real life…… (fill in anything that you like here)

One thing great about human is the way we adapt to things, unlike animal, we can adapt in different kind of situation and environment. So I am getting use to this BS, and I will never get to do anything to change that. Is just that I’m really fed up by this joke they play with the 1Malaysia thing right now.

I think I should really move into the real reason I wrote this post.

So today is April Fool, and I was listening to the news on radio (yeah, u heard me right, the news). There is this news about DPM making the following remark: Malay special right will always come first, 1Malaysia will follow behind.

Then the news continued on about our PM backing his deputy: DPM is right. He is just quoting what is stated in the Constitution(okay, I’m sorry if I didn’t get the term right, but in Bahasa, is Perlembagaan).

As if the first news about the DPM is not hilarious enough, the second news did well to outshine the former. I was laughing in my heart when I heard the news.

The government is ~~throwing~~ spending multimillion to promote and instill the whole 1Malaysia spirit in our people. The concept is really splendid, one big united family consisting different races. No more distinguishing between Malay, Chinese, Indian and the rest of minority races. We are equal, we are loving each other as a family. We share everything, the Bumi have BS, the non-Bumi have nothing.

See where the problem lies? It doesn’t really look equal and fair, isn’t it? You are telling us to unite and walk hands in hands to prosperity and 2020, yet you sit on top of everyone playing with superiority and second class. How can we be really united? Is only human nature that we feel envy or jealous of people having advantage over us, is not a crime for us toe feel that way.

Stop pouring more money into the whole 1Malaysia thing if you still want to hold on to the special right. Withdraw the so called 1Malaysia F1 team which is the most absurd idea I ever heard, unity of a nation on the back of a 4 wheel racing car?

Just leave us as how we are previously, and by that I meant the pre-1Malaysia period. We are doing pretty well anyway, spend that hundred million on developing the country infrastructure and improve the quality of US, the people’s life and welfare.

P.S: As I stated previously, this is my blog, I’m just giving my point of view on things I seen, I experienced and I felt.

P.P.S. : I turn on anonymous comment so that anyone of you can just give your comment without needing your ID.

when is my big G?

2010-03-29T17:54:00.001-07:00

This blog deserve a proper entry, some food for thought, no ranting, no complain, no displeasure, just some wise~0~words.

It is thesis rushing period for lots of final year student right now, but not for me because I am not in my final year yet (ouch). In fact, by the time I graduate, my younger brother would have been working for almost 30 months. Yes, that is how much I am lagging behind.

But becoming a working class is not something I look forward to, I am looking forward to graduation, marriage, having kids, dying, but not working. HaHa. 8 people out of 10 told me that you miss student life as you start to work. I never like studying, but if working makes you miss your student life, that pretty much tell you how suck it is to work (is this sensible to u?).

Wa, where is the wise words? I have been vomiting lots of rubbish for the past 5 minutes. Guess I really should take a break from blogging.